Thursday, September 07, 2006
{ 11:28 PM }
after waking up and getting ready for some things, i still got sent home. sometimes it's really unfair when you come to think of it. i've paid a price to get nothing in return. is it fair for me? ok..let me tell you about today. i went to changkat changi for pk course. after changing into my full u and falling in, i found out that we could choose not to come because we wont get the badge afterall. but i stayed on because i felt that if i went home, it'll be a waste of efforts. so i went up with them altogether and sat there. but then through the mic, the announced,"those who didnt attened the course yesterday, i'm sorry you'll have to go home. those two from chung cheng main whom i said could stay earlier on, you'll have to leave. i'm sorry." that's what they said. i was really angry and sad. almost wanted to cry there, but it isnt worth it is it? it is raining outside..i mean drizzling. and we had to leave. does that mean sending us out leaving nobody to feund for us? so i changed my clothes and went home..straight away went to sleep..because i was so tired. for the past few days, i havent been waking up past 8. suddenly feel like hugging someone and crying now. everytime when the lights went off and i'm all alone, tears will just flow out uncontrollably. i want to hug someone and cry ever so fiercely so that i'll feel better. i know crying wont make you feel better, when tomorrow comes, the pain will still remain, but my life is currently very sucky lar..i hate thie bloody life. and i know there isnt ren2 qing2 wei4 in this world. from what i see today, i understand..when will it rain again?